Today was such a good day! I am exhausted, but it was so good. We began with a walk through the local state park. I’ve spent a fair amount of time there throughout my childhood and adult life, and it was pleasing to show Fox such an important location. Additionally, her dog enjoyed our jaunt. It was a lovely 55 degrees outside so we were able to enjoy a pleasant breeze and clear blue skies. Oh, how I love Indiana in the spring!
Okay, yes, it’s not quite spring. But it FEELS like spring, which is what matters most to me. And it is energizing. I have built up some emotional stock that may help sustain me through the next week or so.
After the park we stopped by my work for lunch and visiting, and then picked up some things at The Container Store. I’ve been attempting to organize my art supplies and Fox has been kind enough to help me with this task. There’s something about friends helping each other organize that is, oh, so satisfying! I am thankful that she has chosen to spread her generosity in my direction. The shopping trip was slightly tense because Fox does NOT enjoy shopping, but we persevered and managed to pick up some key items for my closet.
After that we went to see Soul Sister (the youngest, 16, a sophomore) perform at a show choir competition. She was lovely, of course. She absolutely shines on stage. The crowds are always overwhelming so we left soon after, but it was nice to see her in action.
After that we went home. By this time it was already evening so we got some homework done and other odds and ends. Overall it was a nice day. I’m looking forward to spending time recharging by myself, but it was well worth the energy to be able to spend time with my wonderful friend.
…At the same time, though, my sadness lingers. Maybe it’s the exhaustion, but I can’t help but feel dissatisfied with my life. Perhaps it’s feeling unaccomplished or inadequate. Inferior, for sure. I guess I just fall into the trap of constructing ideas of success that are not currently within my reach. Maybe I’ll get there eventually. Perhaps, though, I should spend some time truly, deeply examining the things that are actually important to me. After all, “when life is smiling at me, why do I frown?”